Kitty Litter

deployment...

2006-10-21T21:12:33Z

Stephen left for Iraq yesterday morning. I took him to the base at 4am, sat with him till 6:15, saw him again at 7:30 and sat with him till 9 when we had to say goodbye. That's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Right now he has no return date and he has no date to come home for his 2 weeks R&R so I honestly don't know when I will see him again. I don't usually ask this of people ever, but please pray for my husband. He said to tell everyone hello and that he loves and misses you all and he will try his hardest to come home safely. Blessed Be and Thank you...

a few pictures

2006-10-15T04:36:57Z

hey guys, i put baby pictures under my userpics. enjoy and i'll add more later.

Update

2006-10-09T00:39:54Z

Ok guys, here's the deal. It takes too much effort to post the pictures on livejournal so I put them up on my myspace. The link for my profile is at the bottom of this entry and if you use that and look under my pictures you'll see a bunch of pictures of Takeshi that I have posted. I g/g we are running out the door to go to Ga. Later!!! Update tomorrow. oh! leave comments and lemmie know what you guys thing of my munchkin! lol

http://www.myspace.com/sallys_demise

baby!!!

2006-10-07T14:57:13Z

Hey guys, I just got home from the hospital last night, but I wanted to pop on here and let you all know that the baby finally arrived!!! He was born October 4th at 1:03PM. He weighed 7.5 lbs and was 19.5 inches long. He's soooo adorable. I promise to post pics later today and give you all the details on how things went, but I gotta run. Mommy stuff to do!! Also, I'll be back in Ga on Monday and the 3 of us will be there for about a week! Update more later!! Bye!

All your dreams are made of strawberry lemonade...

2006-09-02T04:50:19Z

Hey peoples!! I know I haven't updated in forever. Right after I came back from my Ga visit my internet went kaput so I've been without internet for a while, but everything is back on track now! Thank you guys so much for coming to my baby shower while I was back home though. I really enjoyed seeing everyone even though I didn't get to spend as much time with you all individually as I would have liked. Your gifts were absolutely awesome and much appreciated! Not to mention the adventure it was to cram all that stuff in the car with the 2 dogs and our luggage for the drive back to Texas... but it was all good. Seeing everyone was absolutely priceless. Made me realize how much I've TRULY missed you guys. I can't emphasize that enough. People say that when you go through major life changes, you find out who your real friends are...and its true. I know some people couldn't come for different reasons and that's ok. Out of that bunch I do know who my friends are, but to the people who were there...thanx. Just thank you for being my friends and thank you for being my family. **end sappy baby shower rant**
I've been doing alright. Pregnancy is no joke though. I thought I had rough days before, but now every day is a miserable day. It has a tendancy to get you down cause you wake up feeling like shit, you go to sleep feeling like shit and you know that when you wake up the next morning you'll still...feel like shit. Not to mention atrocious (sp?) nights of tossing and turning just trying to sleep in the first place. C'est la vie, I suppose. Last week the doctor said Takeshi was 5 pounds, so he's a big boy. In the third trimester babies gain an average of 1/2 a pound a week, so if I go to *full term* and deliver on my due date of October 14th then he will be like 8.5 to 9 pounds. NOT GONNA HAPPEN. I have every intention of castor oiling myself on the 23 of September, so hopefully I will deliver that weekend. Unless the powers that be have other plans and thwart my attempts to start my labor. I'm just tired of feeling miserable and being in pain. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret this and I love my son, but there is NOTHING like having your insides smushed, your bladder used as a trampoline, swollen boobs, being kicked in the ribs and having another person inside you trying to stretch out like they don't realize there's no more room. And another thing, contractions are HELLATIOUS!!! I'm excited, but I also realize how drastically my entire life is about to change.
The next 3 months should prove to be quite interesting and not just on the baby front. I've been denying it to myself and just not really talking about it for nearly a year, but its time to face the music. Stephen is leaving. No amount of crying or pouting is going to make him stay. Uncle Sam says he needs to go and he goes, that's it. That's his job. One side of me feels like I should just suck it all up. This is the lifestyle we *chose*. Nobody forced us into this. But another side of me feels like my world is falling apart and is just ready to break down. I never wanted to be a single parent. And although Stephen wants this baby just as much as I do and will be there for him as much as he can, the fact is I will be alone. Just me and my son. Its scary. Knowing that when I put Stephen on that plane there's a chance, no matter how slim, there's a chance that his son may never have a memory of him. I know that Stephen won't be here when he first lifts his head or sits up by himself...crawls, has his first tooth, stands up, has his first baby food, says his first word or even takes his first steps. So all in all I will be a single parent. I swear I never imagined I'd be 21 and walking into a JAG office with my husband to make a will. A will. Its frightening. But no matter what, its still my job to be someone's mother.
Wow...I just got online to make a quick entry and put up some pictures for you guys and look what I've done now. lol Funny how that works. Anyway, sorry if all that was uber depressing, but I am pregnant and EXTREMELY hormonal now that I'm about to pop so pardon me. Anyway, use the links and they will take you to pictures of the baby if the images don't show up at the bottom of this entry. I had these done a few days before my baby shower and forgot to bring them to share. Its a 4d ultrasound which allows you to see pretty much exactly what your baby looks like even before they are born. He already looks like a chubby chub then and that was when I was 28 weeks. I'm 34 weeks now so...you can imagine how big he is. I hope you guys enjoy them and let me know what you think.

http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b299/SallyNeko21/GAY_1.jpg
http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b299/SallyNeko21/GAY_11.jpg
http://i21.photobucket.com/albums/b299/SallyNeko21/GAY_17.jpg

Hello again!!!

2006-03-25T02:19:07Z

Hey guys. I know I promised regular updates, but what can I say...I've been rather lazy about this journal thing. So once again, lol, I promise to start keeping up with it. So anyway...let's see. Stephen and I went back to Marietta last week and that was soooo much fun!!! I didn't get to spend as much time with people as I wanted, but I made my rounds as best I could. AND you guys were totally awesome and came to that suprise baby shower. That was soooo nice. I talked about it for days. And, yes, I really was suprised! If you didn't get to come/couldn't come, I understand and I know that you would have been there if you could. Several of you have already expressed this to me and I appreiciate so much that you wanted to be there. But since nobody has seen my ultrasound pictures and stuff, I figured I would post those so everyone could see my little bean. I promised updates so HERE THEY ARE!!!

OK this first picture is from when I was 6 weeks pregnant. It doesn't really look like a baby thought, he looks more like a bean. His head is up and his tail is down, like it should be. He doesn't have "arms" and "legs" yet.

Next up...the 8 week ultrasound. This was when the baby graduated from bean to blob. So everyone, THE BLOB!! *that probably sounds horrible...lol* Anyway, um...the baby's head is twice the size of its body at this stage, so with that said, I take you guys to be smart enough to tell crown from rump. *One is normal sized, the other is a close up picture*

And last, but most recently... my 11 week ultrasound. Strike up "Pomp and Circumstance" people, we have officially moved from blob...to BABY!! *yay* I was so excited to see this one, I could actually see the baby and all his lil limbs. I was so amazed. When the OB put the lil ultrasound thingie on my abdomen I was extatic! *sp?* He was MOVING!!!! He moved his lil arm and then he waved at his daddy. I had the HUGEST DOOFIEST smile on my face. Stephen started laughing. It was funny watching him squirm and then he promptly decided to stop entertaining his parents, roll over, and go to sleep. Great, right? lol But that was really cool. So we got pictures of that and this happened today so I'm still kinda reeling from this high of watching him wriggle. Anyway, the doc left so I could get dressed again and of course, being the people we are, Stephen and I started playing with the ultrasound machine and we watched the baby do somersaults for like five minutes. He rolled over and wriggled his arms and stuff and flipped around. It was so wierd. lol BUT WICKED COOL! Anyway, I'll stop ranting and shutup and show you the picture. His head is to the right and his legs and feet are together and are to the left. You can see his hand too. *that's the round thing by his head*

So anyway, that's pretty much all the updates. The beginning was generally boring, he was just forming his body parts and systems and stuff. lol But now is when all the fun begins. In a few weeks maybe 2 or 3 I should start feeling him kick and stuff. And even though I keep calling him "him", we should find out in 5-10 weeks if its a "him" or a "her". Although, I am thoroughly convinced that it will be a him. *squee* I'm so anxious to find out. Um, I'll also have better and clearer pictures as time goes by and he gets bigger. AND once I get my 4D ultrasound at around 20 weeks or so we will all be able to see what his lil face looks like and stuff. 4D looks kinda like a plaster molding of your baby. Wierd but cool. But I'll keep you guys posted on all the stuff. Um...I think that's it. I have another appt next month. Stephen and I are doing okay. Just bein busy. Trying to get the house back together after being gone for a week and a half. Life is good though. Just waitin for our lil chestburster. lol Anyhoo, leave lots-a-comments!! I'll get back to you guys much sooner this time. Promise!

Later skaters!

-CaLiCo

News News News!!!

2006-02-08T15:10:45Z

Hey guys! As usual its been a hot minute since my last update. I wanted to post this one for those of you who I couldn't reach through IM or Myspace. Stephen and I recently found out that we have a baby on the way!!! *squee* We are very excited and wanted to share this with everyone. I'll keep you guys posted so post comments and let me know what you think!
-cAlIcO

P.S. Steph...your mom was right...if I keep stuffing my face its not so bad. lol

wtf, mate...

2006-01-06T16:40:49Z

Hey guys. Its been hella long time and I haven't updated. Things could be going SOOOOOOOOO much better...Car accidents suck, insurance companies suck even more, physical therapy blows...Stephen's back is all fucked up from the accidet STILL. Its been three months and the car still isn't finished being repaired. I hope everyone had a merry christmas and a happy new year!!! Mine was okay. My mom is here visiting, but she goes home today. She's been here since the 23rd. Its been nice having her around. She's not driving me crazy. lol Life is just frustrating, but then again what's new. Steph, I haven't been able to find your magazine. Stupid Texans don't read the good stuff... Lemmie know how I can get a copy. Hope that whole wrist thing works out for you. That doctor's visit seemed to not be too pleasant. Anyway, I'll update later. Too much on my mind to feel like sharing it all.
-CaLiCo

Texas

2005-11-16T00:02:14Z

Well,I'm finally here in Texas. Things are lookin pretty good. My house is really nice! I'll put pictures up pretty soon. I don't have the internet at my house yet so I'm using Stephen's roommate's computer for now. He's really nice. Rachelle and I drove out here in a 26 foot Penske truck. *which by the way isn't as hard to drive as you may think* It was such a long ride. A truck full of stuff, and me,Shell, a baby (Gabby), Toboe and Roscoe all in the front seat. Luckily, the dogs crawled under the seat and slept nearly all the way. The baby slept most of the way as well. Other than that she was just quiet. Wasn't a bad ride, just long. Stephen is doing well, consiering the accident and all. The car should hopefully be fixed and all that jazz by next Friday. There's still a lot to be sorted out and unpacked. Its weird to finally have a house. The dogs love the yard though. Everyone on my street has a dog or two. Its pretty cool. Funny though. Toboe and Roscoe go running up and down the fence with the neighboring dogs barking and playing and stuff. I like it. I haven't met any of my neighbors though. Anyway, I'm gonna run. Hopefully next time I'll be updating from my house! Talk to you guys soon. AND DON'T FORGET TO LEAVE LOTS OF COMMENTS!!!!
-cAlIcO

P.S. my cell phone is still on so feel free to call it!

sigh... Funny how life just kicks you off when you finally find a cloud to ride...

2005-11-02T22:05:20Z

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded God complex, cock it and pull it

sigh AAAAAAnd I'm back.

2005-10-30T05:11:58Z

lol Wow, it just dawned on me like yesterday how long its been since I've updated here. I've been addicted to myspace.com on the other hand. Those of you that don't have a myspace should get one. They're neato lil thingies. If you do have one let me know so I can add you as a friend. Life here has been pretty much the same. Gabby is walking now. She's still falling over, but what one year old doesn't. She usually only falls when she gets excited and starts running. So she's good. Peoples: Stephen and I just bought a house! So exciting. Its right off the base in Texas. 3 bedrooms 2 bathrooms...nice yard for the dogs. So things are gonna be changin. He's supposed to come home on Tuesday to help me move our stuff over there. I will be back shortly though. I'm super stoked. Finally gettin' the hey out of Marietta. Its a little wierd, I've never felt really attached to here, not like it was home. It was familiar, but not really home. Especially not now. Cause all the things that made it home are gone. Mainly: you guys. *my band fam* We've all grown up together essentially. I miss those memories. lol Good times...and bad. I don't want to lose touch with you guys. *let me know if I'm getting sappy here* BTW, my wedding has been pushed back tentatively until...April. I know that sucks, but the stinking Army thought defending the country was more important than letting my husband go for our wedding in December...*puh-shaaaaaa* >< *shakes fist at Bush* ::Maximus voice:: "I will have my vengence...in this life or the next." He's not off to the Sandbox *Iraq* yet, but he is scheduled to go in July of 2006. We'll see. Who knows, I may come back to M-town for the summer. Anyway, its like 1 in the morning and I'm sure I'm starting to ramble, so I'll go. I promise, it won't be this long before I update again!
-CaLiCo

ew

2005-10-24T04:41:18Z

Which Horrible Affliction are you?
A Rum and Monkey disease.

So sad, but I had to do it...

2005-10-05T22:57:55Z

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Quiz Finally!!!

2005-10-05T03:26:23Z

Okay, here it is....you wanted it....
Three Names You Go By
1. Can
2. Neko
3. Calico

Three Parts of Your Heritage
1. African American
2.
3. Native American

Three Things That Scare You
1. heights
2. being alone
3. losing a loved one

Three of Your Everyday Essentials
1. Chapstick
2. Cell Phone
3. Debit Card

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now
1. Engagement Ring *my bling*
2. overalls
3. red tank top

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists (at the moment)
1. Coheed and Cambria
2. Orgy
3. Amerie

Three of Your Favorite Songs - at the moment
1. "Water Runs Dry" Boyz II Men
2. "We Never Danced to A Love Song" The Manhattans
3. "More Than Word" Extreme

Three Things You Want in a Relationship (other than Real Love)
1. TRUST
2. RESPECT
3. HOPE

Two Truths and a Lie - in no particular order
1. I am usually sleepy.
2. I love my dogs.
3. I am completely over my eating disorder

Three Physical Things about the Opposite Sex that Appeal to You
1. Tall
2. Deep eyes. *I could drown in them*
3. Smooth Skin
Three of Your Favorite Hobbies
1. Reading
2. Writing
3. Drawing *I'll agree with Menchi on this one*

Three Things You want to do really badly right now
1. EAT!!!!
2. cry
3. SLEEP

Three Places You Want to go on Vacation
1. Japan
2. Europe
3. Fiji

Three Things You Want to Do Before You Die
1. Go to Japan
2. Have babies
3. See each of my parents separately happy.

Three Ways that you are stereotypically a Chick
1. I shop
2. I...love earrings.
3. I am a total sucker for sapphire and garnet.

Three Ways that you are stereotypically a Guy
1. I love video games.
2. I understand guys better then chicks sometimes
3. I am a HUGE NY Yankees fan!!!
Three people I would like to see take this quiz
1. Shell
2. Stephen
3. Brandi
*pretty much everyone has already taken it*

Moo

2005-10-05T02:20:29Z

You're a Lion!

Wherever your particular jungle might be, you are considered king or
queen. With a noble yet relaxed air, you are able to control those around you by
implied threat of force. There are those that would attempt to tame you, or even
call you yellow, but you know that you're far too bold for that. You've often been
seen hanging out on the steps of public libraries. Your favorite US state is
Maine.

Take the Animal Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

Your are a queen. Not just any queen but your like
a warrior. You are a very warrior and have a
rich and powerful kingdom, that most other
kingdoms will fight to try to get. You
headstrong and fight in what you believe in.
Your kingdom loves you for that but they wish
their land wouldn't get into so many wars with
others but their happy to live in the rich and
powerful land. Your king would have to be just
as strong and brave as you. Powerful and
demanding. A leader, and never take as second
place. You and him will be very powerful. He
would still be caring and loving.
Name: Katsuo is a name for victory. It matchs you
perfectly.

Are You A Princess Or A Queen? (Beautiful pictures with good details and 8 diferent results)
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You're The Mists of Avalon!

by Marion Zimmer Bradley

You're obsessed with Camelot in all its forms, from Arthurian legend
to the Kennedy administration. Your favorite movie from childhood was "The Sword in
the Stone". But more than tales of wizardry and Cuban missiles, you've focused on
women. You know that they truly hold all the power. You always wished you could meet
Jackie Kennedy.

Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing. You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice. You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
You really don't like snakes.

Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

C'est La Vie!

2005-10-02T01:43:17Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FLIPPER!!!!! Wow, the big 2-1! So...how does it feel you old hag, you? lol I love you, you know I do. Happy birthday. Oh! And may your blankets be infested with the fleas of a thousand camels. *smile* Just kidding!
Well, I trust that things have been going fairly well for you guys. I'm not gonna make this too long because my mom is watching an Auburn game *one eyed glare* and she's getting quite loud. Stephen is still in Texas and I'm still...here. lol Which, of course, sux. On the other hand, I LOVE being an army wife. I wouldn't have it any other way. If you guys get tired of me talking about how much I miss him, sorry. Go read something else. lol This is a live journal and that's my life. I can't wait to go out to Texas and really start my life! I miss Stephen like crazy and I can't wait to see him.
In other news, the Homecoming game is this upcoming weekend. Everyone pwease go! I wanna see my old comrades (sp?)! Ok, getting too noisy in here...time to go! Update more laterz!
-CaLiCo

More true than you'll ever know...

2005-09-30T00:47:09Z

You know you are a Military Wife when...

...you don't mind a phone call waking you up at 4 a.m.
...you tell people that ask that he's 'only' been gone a month.
...the smallest contact (short email) from your man makes your entire week!
...you cry over an email that says nothing more than hi and I miss you.
...those recruitment commercials on TV make you cry because you are so proud!
...your sentences start containing more [acronyms] and numbers than actual words.
...you sleep in PT attire, cuddled up in a poncho liner, because it's the closest you can come to being with your military man.
...you're sitting at home and you realize that you haven't talked to your husband in over a month.
...you get super excited just knowing that your husband tried to call but wasn't able to get through.
...you know your a military wife when your favorite 'man' to see everyday is the MAILMAN (what a love/hate relationship that is).
...when you refer to everyone not in the militay or dating someone in the military as a Civilian

... you can rattle off the time in perfect military time without having to think and finally you get excited when you can name the assault rifle correctly.
...a 30 second phone call after no calls from him for 3.5 months leaves you full of joy and happiness,

..."No news is good news" becomes your motto.
...the motto "no shore too distant " becomes your life.
...you could wait forever for your loved one to return home into your arms.
...you feel yourself growning more and more in love with your military man even while he's so far away.
...planning letters/ care packages and putting them in the mail is more exciting then going out for a night on the town with the girls
...you don't mind tripping over combat boots left in the middle of the bedroom floor.
...while enjoying an evening alone together, your husband shows you all the different ways he knows to kill or incapacitate a man, and then you casually continue cooking dinner as though it's perfectly normal, and you find yourself learning phrases in foreign languages from letters, and aren't surprised when you realize you know how to say, "Throw down your weapons and lay down on the ground!" in Arabic
...you hold off on seeing certain movies so you can see them with your military man when he comes home

....you can be go from being happy, to sad, to lonely, to angry, to proud, and back to happy in a matter of
less than an hour,

...you sleep with the phone right next to you, just in case
...if he's deployed you don't care how your hair looks nor care about wearing make-up, and the people at your work ask about your husband every day to see if you've heard from him
...you start saying thing like "Wow that is a really nice box. Are you going to use that for anything?" to total strangers.
...you can give the rates for all the long distance calling cards on the market without hesitation.
...the sight of any other man in a uniform makes you miss your husband MORE than it makes you drool, and you try to explain to civilians what your husband does for a living, they give you a
blank look because they don't understand a third of what you just said.
...you feel lucky for each second granted to the two of you.
...every new watch you buy had a two time zone feature.

...you are 3000 miles apart and you dont notice the time difference and talk until 5 am his time 2am your time on a school night,

...phone kisses are just as good as the real ones if not better
...you realize you can forgive your husband for not calling you for a few weeks due to the fact he really had to work.

Jumpin on the Bandwagon

2005-09-20T12:26:50Z

Comment and ...
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

BTW, for those of you who have seen the music video for Wake Me Up When September Ends...that's pretty much how my life unfolded. I flipped out cause that's pretty much word for word how things happened for me and Stephen.

sigh

2005-09-11T17:10:03Z

Alright everyone. Here's the deal. I'm gonna put it all out there so nobody is confuzzled anymore. Yes, I am legally married now, so thank you for your congrats. I really do appreciate it! Yes, we are also still having our "church" wedding in December/January, so don't fret. I don't really want you to look at this as though you all missed something. I wanted and prefered for you all to be at the formal ceremony this winter rather than the legal thing. We're trying to get things straightened out with housing and all for Texas, which is why the legal part had to be completed. We got our new car and we are looking to buy a house next, so for military benefits/housing benefits and such the legal aspect had to be finished. Seriously, I do thank you for your congradulations, but I really don't want anyone to feel left out or like they missed something. We just went down to the courthouse and it was pretty wierd and...I dunno, dumb cause we were in a room with like 5 other couples and we all got done at the same time. *shrug* McDonaldization of society at its finest...*for those of you who haven't had psycology yet, I apologize* It would mean so much more to me if you all were at the wedding this winter so I really look forward to seeing you all then. Honestly, my initial plan was to keep all this under wraps and just let everyone come to the real thing, but you can't stop people from opening their mouths *my husband included*. Its cool though. I am glad that you are all happy for me, but I feel really bad that I kept you all confused and in the dark. Anyway, I've got an Anatomy and Physiology II test tomorrow and I still have to finish my lab and I'm watching the baby and making cookies for Stephen. lol busy, busy, busy...I apologize once again, but thank you so much to everyone, I love you all like my brothers and sisters and *sisters* I'll try to be back online and respond to comments and -ish later tonight. Until then...
Lady Bless.
-CaLiCo

Hello, hello, hello...

2005-08-15T23:07:05Z

lol wow...probably one of the creepiest things I've ever heard Jim Carey say. For those of you that don't know, that was from Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events. Folks, I don't know if I will make it to my wedding. I just might rip out all my hair, set myself on fire and jump off of a beautiful white building like Denethor. *who ever thought I'd follow in his footsteps* Life has been colorful. All sorts of drama continuing to go down at Pepper. I'm so ready to be out of there at this point. Scooter has decided to join the Army. *a growing trend for people in my life* So Gabrielle will be in my care until he finishes all his training. Which will be a while. This semester is definitely going to be an interesting one with school, and work and Gabby and the wedding and moving and all. *NEWS FLASH* I will be taking Chinese this semseter AND Spanish at the same time. In the back of my mind I feel like I'm setting myself up for a total burn up, but if i come out on top in December I will be VERY happy and pleased with myself. I've decided to take on A&P (Human Anatomy and Physiology) part II, the accompanying A&P II Lab, Spanish, History, and Chinese this semester. I will be spending a lot of time with my books. Pretty much every free moment I can spare. The good thing though is that I should have the dogs off of my hands since they'll be in Texas with Stephen. I think they'll like it there. Kileen, Texas, if any of you were curious. I have no idea what to expect when I get there, but Stephen and I are going over there when he gets from AIT. We're going to go pick out our place. *SQUEE!!!* He's getting a new car for us before we go. For those of you who are curious...
http://www.vw.com/jetta/index.html
I'm sure though, once he sees the new passat, he'll want one of those. We'll see..., but for right now its the Jetta. Beautiful car. I'm having some difficulty staying within my budget for my wedding, but that happens to everyone from what I hear. Not that I can't go a bit outside my budget, BUT I'd rather not... I found things for less money and I've discovered that some things cost more than I anticipated. All will work out in the end though, right? I'd rather not stick myself in a box and be unhappy with the result than bite the bullet and do what I'd really like. Anyway, I think that's all for now. I'll try to update sooner. Goddess knows I will need someplace to vent over the next few weeks.
-CaLiCo

*Stephen comes home in 16 days!!!*

Quizzes...Quizzes...

2005-08-11T20:58:35Z

The Yaoi Selector: Which Seme are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

People see sadness in your eyes. You seem to be
hurt deeply. You may be unhappy because you are
alone or feel like no one cares about you. Or
it may be because something very awful has
happened to you. Whatever the cause, you go
through each day just waiting for night to come
with sweet relief in the form of your dreams.
But you may have even lost hope in your dreams.
Chin up. Things should get better for you and
there is always at least one person who cares
about you. Have hope.

What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!))
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And The Beat Goes On...

2005-08-05T03:18:54Z

Ugh...nothing like eating your niece's leftover COLD ravioli at 11 PM...Life blows right now. So much drama and so much stress. I've never really been the type to get tension headaches, but I had the WORST one today. Over this past week (which has been so shitty)I feel like I've realized how much I hate myself. I know folks, it sounds stupid, but its true. That's just how I feel. I'm not really gonna elaborate about that too much cause I don't want peoples all up in my personal shiz so...Anyway....there's not really a whole lot to say. This week has blown chunks. Feeling shitty, making myself sick, haven't eaten for 2 days, tired as a mother f*cker. Went to VS and bought all new undies. *this was the highlight of my week* I'm soooooo freakin sleepy. I can't even sleep anymore. This blows. lol wow, I've used that word a lot in this entry. Maybe I should wrap this up before I use it again. Night everyone.
-CaLiCo

"YOU ARE THE PROPERTY OF THE UNITED STATES ARMY..."

2005-07-06T23:07:53Z

OK, talk about OWNED. Geez...so on the 29th, I left for Fort Jackson, SC (a.k.a. the hottest level of hell Dante ever imagined) to see Stephen. Don't get me wrong, the base is really nice, but good god, they really DO try to fry your brain there. I thought I was gonna melt. There was this one lady there from NY to see her daughter graduate from BCT (Basic Combat Training)and she was flipped out about the heat. She had me cracking up. Anyway, so yeah, nice base, nice people. All the soldiers stationed there have really nice cars though. It was wierd. I guess I'll be added to that list soon enough though. *hee hee* Stephen is looking at getting us a new Volkswagen Jetta. (Jetta 5) You can see it at the Volkswagen website. Just go there and look under (duh) Jetta. lol OK, I can stop sounding like a walking advertisement now. So anyway, you guys, Stephen looks so good. They must put something in the water too, cause the guys he made friends with in his platoon and stuff...*daaaaaamn* Very nice looking bunch. But, it was so cute. They were all lined up in their platoons and stuff outside the movie theatre on the base where they were supposed to meet up with their families on Family Day. (June 30th) Their drill sargeants (sp?) were lookin all mean and stuff. It was wierd but cool. They all had to sound off and stuff once all the people showed up to see them. So they had to stand in their lil formations and do their platoon cadence thingie. Each platoon has a different "name" that goes with their number. Like there was the Wolfpack and the Lowriders (i think) and Stephen's platoon was called the Maddawgs. So they did their thing and then their drill sargents started giving them instructions, hence the title of my journal entry. lol The DS (drill sargeant) was all like "You WILL NOT leave the post (base)!" "You WILL NOT consume ANY sort of tobacco or alcohol!" "You WILL NOT take off your uniform!" "YOU ARE THE PROPERTY OF THE UNITED STATES ARMY! You are to be in formation outside the bays (barracks) at 20:00 hours! If you show up at 20:01 you will be considered AWOL!" "DO YOU UNDERSTAND??" My eyes got so big. "the property of the united states army" That's like the ownage of all ownage. You got called someone's property...sucks donkey. Anyway, they were dismissed and I couldn't find Stephen so I was getting a little frustrated. lol All that build up and then I couldn't find him. But he came from around something and, it was so cute, his whole face just softened when he saw me. People, I nearly fell out. He's tan and a little taller and rock solid. He looks good. He's got back his marching band physique (shoulders, back, arms) and then some. We got to spend the day together which was cool and then we went out to dinner with his parents. On the base of course cause we can't break those rules. lol Don't wanna get arrested for stealing US Army property...lol It was wierd cause he just looks at things differently, like he's all conscious about what he eats and if there's dirt on his boots ( I swear, he treats those things like I treat my tims...) He's different, but a good kind of different. A lot more focused. So, blah blah blah...Family day is over. Graduation day was the next day a 09:00. That early in the morning and it was still hotter than the devils sweaty ass crack. But the ceremony was nice. And short too!!! After it was over Stephen got 20 minutes to see me and his parents and then he had to get on a bus to go to Fort Lee, which is where his AIT (Advanced Individual Training) is. He gets out of there on September 1st. Then he gets to stay home for 2 weeks or maybe a little more. We'll see...but anyway, there's the update on him, so I'll write again later and let you guys in on the rest of things! That was my "weekend". Hope everyone had a happy FOURTH OF JULY!!!
-cAlIcO

sigh Well...I'm back...

2005-06-21T23:38:37Z

Well, everyone I AM still alive!!! Sorry I haven't updated in so long. I started Summer school, saw my friend get married, still been working, trying to plan a wedding by my DAMN self. Things have just been really hectic. I'll be ordering my dress in about 2 or 3 weeks. Anyway, to keep the explanation short, its been pretty hectic over here. I called you Steph and Kelly. Like, a bunch of times...but nobody ever called or wrote back...Glad you enjoyed your trip...I bet it was beautiful...West, I hope you're enjoying your summer. Nothing really new developing over here. I've got a swollen lymphnode. *gland thingie in your neck (right behind your jawbone) that fights off infection* No, its not all swole up and I look like a bobble head or anything, but it does hurt like a MOTHER. I'm dealing. *shrug* I got some antibiotics, so hopefully it will clear up in a few weeks. Other than that things have just been going. I've been studying my ass off. Me and those damned books...*sigh* Oh well, I signed up for this. Good news: I've only got 14 more classes to take till I am a graduate of some nursing program. I am plowing through this school thing. Down side: Its getting harder to find things to take cause I only need a few classes. College is so overrated. Gabby is getting so big. Wish I could post a picture of her on here...She's only 10 months now and she's already trying to walk. Pretty girl...she's my munchkin. I love her and she's so sweet. She'd get so excited when I'd come home from work and school while she was here. I miss her. Anyway, I'll catch you guys later. I've gotta go guess what? STUDY *shock* Later skaters...

"Slowly the pen touches paper
In the guidance of the words that you write
Memories roll in of the things you once did
And who you had shared them with
Is somebody thinking of you...
Did I bother telling you this
With the words that cross teeth and jump lips
A poor choice of words
In wanting to tell you anything
And words don't come with ease
They're forever my hurt..."
-"The Light And The Glass by C&C

wow.

2005-05-12T04:26:14Z

Okay guys, so its been a rough night for me thus far...I have finally had that emotional/mental breakdown. Alone in my room I began to cry, and cry...and cry. And then, I began to have panic attacks/anxiety attacks. It was absolutely awful. Terrifying and scary. I couldn't breathe. My left arm has been shaking and spasming for the past hour or so. I'm still shaking all over, but at least my arm has stopped. I'm so tired now. Congested and tired. Its funny how life can just throw you those curveballs and then the look on your face is priceless when you get pegged in the leg. Anyway, I wanted to share my experieince with you and to finally get into the bed. I will definitely be glad to lay my head down after all of this. Later skaters!!!